hangover

 Sorry for not updating in the last few days. I was in a bit of a social rut so I went out with some friends Wednesday night and continued going out every night since then. I met many new people which was the goal. I did stupid stuff and had the adventures that I've been craving. I'm a little ashamed that most of my calorie consumption was alcohol. I'm down a pound so it can't be that bad. It's not like I'm drunk every night.
 I kept turning down food because it scared me. I kept thinking about the damage the food would do to me. Unless I had fresh spinach or fruit around, I chose starvation of satiation. Just the thought of my next meal is terrifying. I wish I could avoid food all together. Maybe I'll try this tomorrow. A liquid fast to calm me down.